For 15 years, it's been on Dave's heart to become a child psychologist. Fifteen years...and getting married and having four children in 12 of those years and somehow the time never seemed right to change careers and pursue a Master's Degree and PhD.
God has been patient. I believe He would continue to be patient except, we are finite beings and while God has all the time in the world, we don't. So now is the time. God made that abundantly clear. And though the way in which this all came about was painful to go through, we rejoice in these circumstances because we know we pursue God's will for our lives.
Next week Dave starts classes and each step we must take for this next season of our life will be steps of faith. I'm just praying we stay on that narrow path because it's all rather foggy right now.
The biggest question is asking God how He will choose to provide for us with Dave in school full time and me a full time mom. The biggest challenge is to have no fear in the process of walking this out.
Or 3 a.m. anxiety and over-thinking things like I did early this morning.
And today His reminder:
In BSF: Do not be afraid [Beloved], I am your shield and your very great reward.
And in today's Gospel portion: But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well.
Oh how I need those reminders. How I need to repeat them until they become a part of every breath, every heart beat.
And if you pray, we can take all of that kingdom currency that we can get. Specifically?
- To be strong and courageous. To not be terrified or discouraged and remember that God is with us wherever we go. (Joshua 1:9)
- To let God's will and His desire for our provision be the number one desire of our hearts
- To prayerfully consider how and how much we downsize (this has been a prayer of mine for a couple of years now - the desire to live with less so we are open to give more)
- To be asking God if I am to help with our income (as of now I don't feel called to re-enter the workforce :) but I want to be sure this aligns with God's will